Wild

"To me, humanity is not a stain on wilderness as some seem to think. Rather the human spirit is one of the most striking realisations of wildness. It is as eccentrically beautiful as an ice crystal, as liquidly life generous as water, as inspired as air. Kerneled up within us all, an intimate wildness, sweet as a nut. To the rebel soul in everyone, then, the right to wear feathers, drink stars and ask for the moon. For us all, the growl of the primal salute. For us all, the Scaramouche and Feste, for the scamp, tramp and artist, the furious adolescent, the travelling player and the pissed-off Gypsy, for the bleeding woman, and the man in a suit, his eyes kind and tired, gazing with sad envy at the hippie chick, with the rucksack. For us all, every dawn, the lucky skies and the pipes. Anyone can hear them if they listen: our ears are sharp enough to it. Our strings are tuned to the same pitch as the earth, our rhythms are as graceful and ineluctable as the four quartets of the moon. We are - everyone of us - a force of nature, though sometimes it is necessary to relearn consciously what we have never forgotten; the truant art, the nomad heart. Choose your instrument, asking only: can you play it while walking?"

- Jay Griffiths -

And my lesson was clear ...

In 2008 whilst filming his BBC series about the Amazon Bruce Parry had his own ayahuasca experience, which was: "Bruce - stop thinking you know better than everyone. Yes, you’ve had some great life experiences and you have a respectable insight to some subjects, but you’ve got to deflate that ego of yours, stop thinking of the clever riposte before the other person has even finished talking. Be in the moment and listen, yes listen to others. It’s not about being better than other people and establishing your place in some invisible hierarchy, it’s about sharing this worldly space with others. Occasional experiences are beyond rational thought. They cannot be explained. We live in difficult times and we are in danger of losing our connection to the natural world. Some answers will only come from listening and experiencing the world in its natural state." I can relate to this very much, as I feel this physical need to get out of my own way, to stop the chattering of my ego and to listen to those around me. I'm finding it hard to do that with the incessant demands of work. In my confused state I think it maybe time to step away from the University and sit awhile and listen until the next action finds me. Enough searching, striving, looking, acting. Now it's time to be.

Sweet Song

What am i to do

someone here is really not happy

Put myself on a line

It seems i never got thru to you

So i ween myself off slowly

I'm a darkened soul

My streets all pop music and gold

All our lives are on TV

You switch off and try to sleep

People get so lonely

I believe i believe i believe

Everything's out to sea

I believe i believe i believe

That is the way it should be

I hope you feel the same

Everyone is dying

Stop crying now here comes the sun

I didn't mean to hurt you

It takes time to see

what you have done

So i ween myself off slowly

I believe i believe i believe

Love is the only one

I deceive i deceive i deceive

Cos i'm not that strong

Hope you feel the same

And now it seems that we're fallin apart

But i hope i can see the good in you

Come back again

Coz i just believed in you

- blur -

The point of no return

You know that moment just before the champagne cork pops, or the feeling just as you take your foot of the ledge to bungee jump, or just when the string from a bow is released but the arrow has yet to move ...

Well this is it ...

All the forces of nature are pushing in one direction, the point of no return has been crossed and there is a nano second of time when you realise you can not go back and the future has yet to begin - that moment of NOW is so real, it's like the everything that is and ever was or will be. Life is 3-D, 4-D, 5-D ... infinite - D, all your senses are working to the max, AND YET in this moment of extreme awareness, of presence there is a knowing, a feeling of calm inevitability, of impending futureness.

It's scary, intense, overwhelming IN YOUR FACE no ducking, no diving, no hiding and from this you are drawn to the possibility, the newness, the excitement of it all.

WOW - this is happening to me, to the people I love, to acquaintances, to people I meet on the street and just get talking to.

I am witness to these moments occurring around me.

There is a palpable shift going on, no judgment, no good or bad, just change. As the saying goes, it's a stepping off point onto the field of play, have your game head on people, get ready for the B of the Bang, for the lights to go Green, it's all going on.

You better be a player or you'll get played !!!

Hang onto your HATS, coz here we go ... whoosh ..!

Dopeness versus Wackness

"Instead of looking at all the dope things in your life

you look at the wack, it's like, stop caring about the wackness."

Chuckie Chick in the deep stuff ...

When the snow lay round about, deep and crisp and even,

brightly shone the moon that night, as Chuckie Chick lay freezin',

he still keeps his head held high, despite the winter cool,

coz he knows the snow about, is made of crystal jewels.

Our Deepest Fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
And as we let our light shine, we consciously give others permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

- Marianne Williamson -